Misguided Ghosts

I love that song, it totally teaches how to be a wise person in love.

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Misguided and unknown,
At least there's a track for me to follow,
The track I call right track,
The essential pathway for everyone.

I might have fell, torn apart, and broken,
but I am back up.
It will be hard, to be pushed down again by the same person,
because once you know the tricks and treats of that soul,
you know how they work about,
and if they ever try to push you down again,
recall back how you got up and you will easily rise up
again and again.
You will easily rise up.

I will try my best to go on without thinking of you.

Happy Chinese New Year in advance!
Some say this year is a bad year,
some say it's a year to transform,
some don't even mind.
I think I should be the one that doesn't mind.
I was hesitating to welcome this year because most of the news I've collected was bad news.
But, I don't think I should be superstitious.
It's another Good CNY, it's an event, an occasion that one shouldn't miss.
No matter the older generation or the younger ones, everyone will still keep the tradition going.
It's part of life already. :)
It's a routine. Yearly routine.
Let this celebration rejoice, revive and refresh us again.
Although life moves on, this day made us all gathered together,
sitting on the dinner table with chopsticks and spoons, some with forks,
to celebrate, to have dinner and most importantly, having a good time with each others company.
That's Chinese New Year. :)

FORM 1 was horrible, I don't know anything.
FORM 2 was funny, I went back to the right track! And more friends definitely.
FORM 3 was awesome, more understanding, more networks, more events, more experience.
FORM 4 is pressuring, yet exciting, terribly exciting sometimes. It's something new, something raw.
FORM 5 (I will fill in this place in years to come :))

Bye blog! I love you :D Although my last post was in 23RD OF DECEMBER 2011 D:

Those days.

That very moment when you asked "Are you single?" for a couple of times and she couldn't hear you.
The times that you put your arm on her like a brother, the way she shoved it away, pissing you off.
The times when you hear her sing, she sang without noticing you were looking.
The time when you said that she was truly your partner, now and always.
Those times when she was in jeopardy and you told her "Trust me",
All those times,
when she acted like she didn't know you had more than a fling on her.
when she said that you will always be shorter and you got mad for the first few times,
after that you became used to it,
used to her insults,
used to her dares,
used to her moves of every move she makes,
used to look at her when she's not looking,
used to smile at her when she's recording you.
All those times,
unfortunately passed,
she regretted pretending not to know you had a fling on her,
but also,
she didn't regret, cause as a girl full of insecurities, she felt that you and her are no match, not a pair at all.
She listed out the things that will made her evidence obvious.
She keep reminding herself not to fall,
not to fall too deep,
too hard,
and got trapped.
She always stands at the cliff of the love valley,
hanging on each and every day,
holding back,
taking a step back everyday,
and when she was ready to flee,
She heard you.
She hurt you too.
But she can never turn back.
Those were the times.
She didn't flee though,
She went back to the cliff,
looking down,
still thinking about it,
and it all got back to the moment when she was there,
holding on,
cause she heard you, your voice was there, so she decided to stay for awhile.
It may not last,
it may be,
she doesn't know,
all she know was,
she will stay,
even for awhile,
and hoping for miracle to happen again.
She thinks she missed the chance.
But you never told her whether she did or not.
Tell her,
she might want to hear your voice again.

I don't mind, I live life to the max.

Time flies with rhythm,
Time doesn't disappear without a trace, nor without warning.
But they are invisible,
you can't see the time you spent,
can't replay,
can't reuse.
Time is a dangerous thing,
yet a very special thing,
that made the world keep changing,
from dawn to dusk. dusk to dawn.
Sometimes I wonder,
why can't we stop the time?
But I know always,
we have to live our life to the max,
cause we will die a very very long time.

________

Christmas is around the corner already!
I am so excited. Everyday I have Christmas songs in my ear, because I like Christmas so much (it's fake, I don't really adore Christmas that much! But when I have the chance to perform during Christmas, that adds to the everyday Christmas anxiety) So anyway, I am currently keep repeating a song by Mariah Carey "All I Want For Christmas" because I have to memorise, and perform it very, very soon.

By the way,
check out this event!
https://www.facebook.com/events/183858108372386/

It's the special Christmas event organised by SMK SEAFIELD's Leo. My friends and I are performing at this event! So do check us out peeps ;)

Anyways!
I went working on the 10th and 11th of Dec as a promoter of

NESTLÉ BLISS

and the new

F&N Drink, Clearly Citrus.

 :)

There are lot more people trying than buying sometimes, hahah some of the shoppers bring an empty shopping cart and go Carrefour to try the food always (there's always free food in Carrefour, well most of the time) So you can imagine shoppers literally take their "lunch" there sometimes. But, customers are always right so I tried my best to serve them right!

And good news I made some really good sale!

All glory to God :D

Okay bye bye, I have to practice the songs already. Hahahah

Cant wait for Christmas

Sleigh bells ring,
are you listening,
in the rain,
snow is glistening,
people were greeting,
singing carolling,
merrily celebrating,
for Christmas.

I took some webcam photos!!

I am A QUITE SYOK SENDIRI PERSON.

But I am not literally a camwhore, I cam when I have the mood hahhaa
NAH as you can see,

holidays are a total bore.

I literally used the computer the whole day without feeling sick.

I am currently so sick of the comp.

SO yeah.

Bye.

Qualifying Round

Hey blog!!




It's been such a long time I know.

19th November 2011
Life is so fun after a few miserable days of holidays. Couple of days ago on 19th I went to Flying Fox at Shah Alam with sister's friend and my sister's friend's college students, without my sister (what? why so complicated? isn't your sister's friend your friend? Well I am used to calling her that way,)  She's my sister's bff actually hahaha but I still like to call her sis's friend.
Anyway, my social mood was at the top so I decided to mix around and met a few new friends. They are all so kind! I used to have a bad impression about Uni students (I am the only 15 ha) but now it's all gone thanks to them! :D

20th November 2011
after that day, I went out with Aiza, Soon Yee, Suanne and Samuel Tee and Soon Yee's brother(a pro bowler for a non-trained) lol most of them were amateur but it all turns out well! Samuel catches up really fast and got 2nd place at last! Suanne started to know how it all works out too! So proud of them haha.
Suanne went home earlier, we went shopping at Brands Outlet, it was a MEGA SALE WITH RM9 for one shirt! It's 100% cotton and has lots of printing texts(don't really fancy them actually). Chose one without the  printing texts just a girl with a stripy painted sky blue background. It's really sweet and innocent but my sis told me is was "Aiyo, so ugly la" maybe cause it doesn't suit her and she can't wear it anymore so she was being begrudging. So cute of her :P

Bla bla bla, days goes on.

I went for the qualifying round on the 24th of November!

It was a great experience since this is my 1st competition that I joined, wait, there's one more I joined in school, I think that was counted as the first, yeah.
So this is the 2nd competition, 2nd qualifying round but I hope I can get into finals(haha who doesn't right), not having hopes for winning just wanted to have the whole experience of getting into finals hehe. I usually don't do really well in Finals, including school tests ha! Hope my PMR will turn out well! God will bless me :)

Can't believe I typed so much about my life lol, it's just been a few minutes and I love blogging already, just now when I wanted to start I was like "LAZY LAAAA" then after that now I'm feeling anxious to write some more hahahaha. I guess I should end here, it's too long to read and it might bore people(including myself) off.

Goodbyes!

And.. here's a video my friend uploaded in the Youtube for me.

DON'T laugh please :| My whole family laughed at me when I showed them, ( I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHY).




Enjoy hehe, try to okay! I practice 5 hours ago before the qualifying. I know I shouldn't do that. hahaha but I did and will never do it again! O-O

Bye!

Yesterday was a day that will be in my unforgettable days' list.

I remember that day you told me to trust you,

I learn your words by heart and hoping you would do the same,

But then again, trusting you, a treacherous one,

Despite the look you gave me in your eyes, benevolent and benign,

I would do anything to persuade myself that trusting you is tolerable.

That the trust you bestow shows

Your passion,

Your valor,

And all my trepidation was shield.

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Hey bloggie.

It seems like the weather is literally scorching.

It starts from being really cool in the morning. Few breezes here and there and now, all the breeze became a messenger of the Sun, transferring the heat from them to us. Thanks a lot, wind.

My brother went downstairs already. Never mind, I'll just continue blogging.

Hurrah, yesterday was the last day of school, I spent my last moment of school together with Aiza, she's a really lovely person, and definitely one with a bubbly side. However, she made me realised that 2011's school day is gone, forever.

It's hard not to look back at the memories; I struggled to choose between education and recreation. I picked education out of my conscience and thought it was the best for me. Yes it is, and always will be. But I knew deep inside me I have to balance my life and make it at poise.

Revolution is going to strike twelve.

Everbody listen up,
Here's a thing about world,
People influence their mates,
So that one group can be a majority,
But what the majority doesn't know,
Is that an empire won't last forever,
Is that the quotas would change,
Is that minority aren't just going to sit down and seethe,
When the majority do all the sins to discriminate them,
When the majority attempt to threaten the needy,
The minority will grow up stronger and stronger,
To debate,
To voice out,
And make a revolution.


I love blogging in a way I couldn't say it.
Hahahah just made a poem on the top :D

It's about a revolution, weird huh? I never knew I could write something like that.

I went to school yesterday, which is the 5th of Nov. Amelia, Sharmaine, Hanan, Aiza, Yovisha, Suanne were there to keep me company always. :)

The WVE didn't came to school, heard from Amelia Winnie and Vivien came the day before, for Leo. They're so loyal to Leo, they should have been nominated the Loyal Leos. Hehehehe.

And I want you to know baby, I I love you like a love song baby. I am currently listening to Love You Like A Love Song by Selena Gomez, waiting for Glee Episode 1 Season 1 to finish buffering, it delays, a lot. Yes, I skipped Glee Episode 1 Season 1, and I can still watch on and on, awesome.

I realised that I used to sing without passion, and I don't really like it when I hit the wrong note and other mistakes. But after I learned how to feel a song, it's different, I wanted to sing my own way, and wanted to relate it to myself, wanted to know more about the singer's feeling behind the songs when they sing. I learned to feel. I am really grateful :)

That's why I wanted to share on my blog. Just wanted to share my feelings with other people, influence others to feel the song while singing it. It's all about the passion that made a song possible to be sung.

Goodnight, I shall watch Glee now! :D

Loves, the [A]wesome [A]deline. Just joking, well no, I wasn't, ...... whatever. ;)

One of the chats from Omegle. :)

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!

Stranger: 16,m,Austria you?

You: 15 female from Malaysia, if you know where it is

You: :)

Stranger: i think so

You: Hahaha, well it's in Asia.

You: What do you like to do?

You: It's really late here though, like 3 am.

Stranger: by me 19h55

Stranger: windsurfing you?

You: Oh i see, never tried that before.

You: I love to sing

You: :D

You: wanted to put some covers on youtube,

You: but not that prepared yet.

Stranger: oh

You: how often you go surfing?

Stranger: not very often where i live i cannot do it very often :(

You: Oh sigh D: When you were so into it?

You: i mean

You: when you start to like it

Stranger: on sport week

You: sport week?

You: o.o

You: what's that?

Stranger: from school a week on a lake

You: anyway check out this song, it's really nice.

You: wow! That's fun. I wished we had that here.

You: It's so hot, and humid here

You: .___.

You: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OHkvan-NFnM&ob=av2n

Stranger: i cannot open it youtube doesnt work on my laptop

You: Oh i see, it's okay, try to find it if you can, A thousand years by Christina Perri

You: heard of her?

Stranger: maybe

You: Okay, hahaha know the movie Twilight?

You: I bet you do

Stranger: yes why?

You: She's singing that song for the latert Twilight Saga, Breaking Dawn, though I am not a fan of Twilight. Are you a fan?

Stranger: i have seen the movies

You: Oh i see, well um you don't talk much.

Stranger: oh sorry i have to lern for my biologic test

You: I see why now. Biology? I am learning that next year, heard it's not difficult, anyway good luck :D

You: if you are curious about anything, just ask, i mean we're strangers. hahaha

Stranger: thy its not hard its ok

You: oh, good to know that! Schools here works a bit diff, we study science and art streams only when we reach 16.

You: I have to learn a song too so we're both busy. :)

Stranger: realy in austria we had it with 10

Stranger: ore 7

You: woa. Yea! We learn science 1st, with everything inside, physics and bla that is called science.

Stranger: thats by use dificult subjects

You: I don't get what you mean :/ Do you have any favorite songs?

Stranger: not realy you?

You: Me? I love music, so yeah I guess it's a lot. :D

You: What tests do you have tmr?

You: Just bio?

Stranger: this week yes

You: oh :) I am having a 3 month holiday, since I just finished PMR.

Stranger: oh great

You: yeah :) oh my god

You: really hungry,

You: but everyone's sleeping.

You: except me. creepy :|

You: I guess I might treat you like a twitter

You: Lazy to go tweet , so yeah will "tweet" here.

Stranger: i have no tweeter

You: Really? Lol, how about Facebook?

You: But twitter doesn't do much, so it's okay

You: ;)

Stranger: i have it you?

You: Yeah. I love to use social websites

You: At least you have a facebook.

You: Hahahaha

Stranger: of course ^^

You: Mind me checking out your page? it's not like I'm gonna add you, just curious and I have literally nothing to do -.- Do you play games?

Stranger: not more whats your name on fb?

Stranger: you will not see much

You: Oh okay. Adeline Gooi

You: oh, i have not know your name yet, just realised

You: your name?

Stranger: tobias stbinger

You: Cool name, you mix?o.o

Stranger: why do you ask

You: Lol, plain curious.

Stranger: what do you mean?

You: Just asking. Thats why I meant

Stranger: oh ok do you like it?

Stranger: hello?

You: Like what?

You: was away just now.

Stranger: no probem

Stranger: no problem

You: okay :) what were you saying just now?

Stranger: not important

You: oh well okay, I have to go. Nice chatting with you somehow. :)

Stranger: to :)

You have disconnected.

Hey blog. I was really busy these few days, sorry for abandoning you.

:)

I joined some audtions for talent in school, so I didn't have the time to blog. Speaking of audition, it was a really exuburance experience!

It was amusing when I heard the applause, that gaves me a little assurance that I did fine.

The best part was that Hanan, Amelia, Sharmaine, Aidil, Natasha, Wei Jun, I Shuen, Kah Yin, Bryan, Sue Zanne, Suanne, Aiza, Yovisha, Pik Yen and lots more were there to as buttresses.

And on the other hand, I managed to join the school's counselling for a competition called My Talent.  There were 30 schools competing for the competition but eventually the host school wins the Grand Prize(it always happens). However, we got 7th place out of 30 in the competition which was really encouraging for us to keep on striving to follow our dreams. Because we practised less than a day, moreover we didn't know about this until the day before the competion, I know right.

okay well I guess I'll stop here, Dad's calling. Goodnight, it's 4.09a.m. here btw :D

 

I'm glad that I learn how to share. I am grateful.

Hey diary, or public diary.
Until this day, I still have problems. But I am grateful, that I still have it because I can still strive, survive, and solve moreover overcome the problems, issues, that I face and move on.

I guess God gave all of us a life, full of questions, that needs our copability to search for the right answers.

It's sometimes tideous, to own the quandaries over and over again. It's like a reminder on a sticky note that you had once thrown away and now it comes back to you. A reminder, that's needs to be remind again.